34 days.. that’s when my c-section and tubal surgery is scheduled. Though obviously she may come before then. Who knows, Dinah will come when she pleases, haha. I am so excited. I thought I would be nervous this time.. I am going to miss feeling her, but I’m going to be glad to not be pregnant, and to have a new baby. I love how much Leon is growing but I miss having a newborn, too.
Space unicorn take 2 @sugarpill goldilux and @urbandecaycosmetics electric palette + @limecrimemakeup poisonberry #motd #space #altblackgirls
Oh my god, I want a unicorn headband so bad now. She is gorgeous!
What’s the chick flick you secretly love?
Oh, The Notebook—easy one. My entire baseball team in high school loved that movie.
So I follow my aunties on pintrest for like sharing recipes and stuff but today one of them posted this gif:
and they’re all commenting like “the perfect man” and “what all women want ;)” and stuff like that
And I’m over here laughing my ass off because that’s gay porn star, Austin Wolf. This gif is from a gay porno. Like, literally 5 seconds after this moment, he has a cock in his mouth.
I am always in awe of creating this gorgeous little monster. He’s my sunshine. :)
Can’t wait to have his sister here with us, I know she’s going to be just as lovely.
You three are like the only ones on here who actually read my stuff, I think, haha. That’s why you are my favorites! Thanks Skyy, Summer & Mike. :)
I’m slightly worried.
I’ve been without a bipolar episode since Feb when I was manic for a month during my post partum depression. I got through it without meds and only one impatient visit.
I know ppd will come back when Dinah is born, but I’ve started to realize I’m hitting another manic state. Last time, it was just being impulsive and delusive about money, and other things I don’t want to get in even here, but it strained Miles and I really, really thin, as well as making it hard for me to mother Leon.
Tonight, I was showering, and I started hearing auditory delusions, and I panicked really bad. I didn’t have that last time, I haven’t hallucinated since I was 19 and going on the heavy meds. I’ve had panic attacks. I’ve had the high energy, burst of creativity and impulsiveness in the last few weeks but I thought it was just nesting because Dinah will be here within 4-6 weeks.
Now I’m kinda worried about how having her will effect my bipolar. I am going to talk to Miles about it tomorrow, just do he knows we need to make sure I don’t get worse. I want to breastfeed, so I can’t get on meds. Even if I wasn’t, we are so far in medical/credit card debt, we cannot afford for me to go back into therapy and meds.
I’m hoping maybe I just need sleep, and Dinah to here, and this night is just a one time thing.
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